Everything I Was Doing Instead of Writing This Newsletter

The last thing I wanted to do when I started this newsletter was to immediately stop writing it, like the million of ADHD-driven projects of my past. But then I got busy, and then I got laid off again for the second time in a year, and I was so not busy that I couldn’t bring myself to write anything, let alone do anything. Depression, I know her well. But it’s New Year’s Eve and my blood is more THC than not and I finally feel that spark of wanting to put words down again. Thank fuck, because my TikTok career is floundering. So here’s what I’ve been doing instead of writing this newsletter (aka when I was able to peel myself off the couch), and setting some intentions for 2026.

Everything These Past Few Months That Hasn’t Royally Sucked Shit

• I got to try Rolo’s infamous burger, even though our brunch reservation was past the time when they are usually sold out. It was delicious. 
• I saw Julio Torres’s Color Theory, which really stuck with me, as someone who has had numerous conversations with her therapist about what color something is solely based on vibes. 
• I got a new tattoo, which means my legs officially aren’t symmetrical anymore, which I kind of wigged out about for a second, but now I think I officially have the cutest legs ever. 
• Speaking of wigging out in my body, I’ve lost almost 90 pounds, which is crazy. A lot of walking, fiber, and GLP1 injections, and I’m feeling fantastic when my bones don’t hurt because I’m so sad.
• I got my first facial even though I was really anxious about it, and I had a beautiful experience, and my skin felt fucking incredible.
• I saw Jinx Monsoon in Oh! Mary and the show felt entirely new, even having seen it with Cole in the titular lead before. I love drag queens so much.
• I saw Addison Rae at the Brooklyn Paramount, and she was a perfect pop princess.
• I went to the Kneecap live stream at Kings Theatre despite knowing basically nothing about the band save for having watched the movie once, and it was incredible to be in a room full of love for Palestine.
• I took myself on a date to see Dylan Mulvaney’s The Least Problematic Woman in the World. There was a special moment in the play for Diane Keaton, who had just passed. It was very New York. I love this city a whole lot.
• I sat and ate four courses at San Sabino with a delicious mocktail in hand, tucked into the corner of the bar before the dinner rush, just by asking the host nicely. 
• I went upstate and drank apple cider and ate apple cider donuts and most importantly, took excellent orchard photos in my excellent Sandy Liang x Gap trench coat.
• I saw Doechii at the Theater at MSG, and I think she’s one of the most incredible performers of all time.
• I saw Amaarae at the Knockdown Center, which was kind of a weird show for a lot of reasons, but I was shroomed off my ass and vibing, so yes, sometimes drugs are the answer.
• I went to a taping of The Late Show with Stephen Colbert, and not to go full neolib, but it felt very cool to get to watch Michelle Obama talk about fashion, which is the thing I like best about her. 
• I saw Josh Sharp twice, both in Ta-Da! and at the Bell House for a crowd work night. I fear he might think I’m stalking him, but I just think he’s really funny.
• For my birthday, we went and saw Keanu Mother Fucking Reeves in Waiting for Godot, and then I ate my weight in dim sum at Din Tai Fung. It was a dream.
• I saw Ari'el Stachel’s Other, which was really great, as a fellow pro-Palestinian Jew with a shit ton of anxiety,
• I saw Langston Kerman, also at The Bell House, where I always am, because he is adorable and funny and worth going to Gowanus for.
• I saw Mary Beth Barone and some of my favorite comedians marry 5 gay couples at, you guessed it, The Bell House, and it was queer and magical and beautiful.
• I went to the Guggenheim Museum at the same time as Sandra Bullock, and she has that It factor celebrity energy in person in a really fab way. Like it stopped me in my tracks. Really, really fab.
• I’ve been watching a shit ton of movies. Like so many movies that my therapist (I’m really showing a lot of restraint here, not mentioning her every other line) was concerned because she is very much aware I watch television, not movies. My favorites include If I Had Legs I’d Kick You, One Battle After Another, Fight or Flight, and I Used to Be Funny. But I watched a lot more than that. In between all of the Bad Girls Club.
• I also think Heated Rivalry, the Canadian gay hockey show made with two pennies in a dream, is far better than I could have ever imagined. Rose Landry forever!

What I Want Out of 2026

• A stable job. With health insurance.
• To pour into my friends as much as they’ve poured into me this year. 
• To be the best Titi Liza ever ♥️.
• To write this newsletter with some consistency.
• To gain some peace with the help of EMDR therapy.
• To continue taking advantage of living in the greatest city on the planet.
• And when I have money again, I want to slowly rebuild my closet now that I’m skinny as a needle because every time I leave the house, I get compliments on my outfits, and I’m not even wearing shit that fits me. I deserve to stunt. 

All my love. Happy New Year!

Liza